A Look Back at 2019

Well, here we are. We have watched the old year pass, and saw a new year ushered in. I won’t say that 2019 was a bad year. But it did offer me some tremendous challenges. I handled some of those challenges well. Others I failed miserably at.

2019 saw me end a failed attempt at a pivot to a management position. It saw me leave a job I loved with people loved and enjoyed working with. It saw me start a new job doing interesting work, solving interesting problems, being introduced to new, smart people. The job change also provided me with a precious commodity, time. As it turns out that time would come in handy.

2019 also saw the loss of a few more people, far too young. But it also found me forging and strengthening relationships with new friends and colleagues. The end of the year had me accessing and using skills I haven’t tapped since my EMS days.

I can’t say what the new year will bring. If I could I would be a very rich person. My goals for the new year including continuing my quest to be a bit healthier, getting back into my love of music, and taking more time to stop and “enjoy the view”.

When I think back to all of my professional accomplishments, personal successes, and failures this year, I am reminded of the chorus of a song called Orpheus. The lyrics are:

“Don’t stop trying to find me here amidst the chaos
Though I know it’s blinding there’s a way out
Say out loud, we will not give up on love now
No fear, don’t you turn like Orpheus, just stay here
Hold me in the dark and when the day appears
We’ll say we did not give up on love today”

When I think about whether 2019 was a success, I keeping coming back to this line from the second verse of the same song:

“But that’s enough, if the bottom drops out
I hope my love was someone else’s solid ground”

I think if my presence in someone else’s life provided them with the solid ground they needed to keep going, then I did my job this past year. History can decide how I score on that item, but I think overall I did a pretty good job.

Happy New Year to all my friends and family both far and near. I wish you joy, happiness, success, and love for 2020.